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IM 21!!!

Okay. So i had my birthday yesterday, and my birthday dinner at Hard Rock Cafe on the gold coast. The food was good, and the company even better. I'm so grateful for everyone who came despite the interesting events that occurred that night and the different feelings that over came me. Completely overwhelmed by it all, a trip to the ladies with some old girlfriends for a chat and a laugh turned things around. I had a really good night, and got some beautiful presents.

I danced my ass off at Sin City by myself and was accompanied by my brothers and Harley "too many dicks on the dance floor, too many dicks. Too many dicks on the dance floor, too many dicks!" - i am not kidding. Males out numbered females 6-1. I couldn't help impersonating all the single dudes dancing together, but didn't want to join them so felt safe cocooned by the boys i knew. My brothers hated every song at Sin City, but they solely were there for me and i really appreciate that.

Ive been through alot emotionally the past week. Past emotions, feelings, circumstances and instances have crossed my mind and brought themselves back to the surface not only to reveal to me how far i've come, but also to help me make the right decision. I don't want to waste my time sitting around mulling everything over and over again, but rather take each day as it comes and go with what feels right. I just listened to Sum 41 - Fat Lip.. Its one of those chill out and go with the flow kind of songs and all i want to do right now is dance, drink rum, sing karaoke and get out and socialise. Im a fun loving and carefree person and i thrive on spontaneity, excitement and of course, the simple things. I spent a few songs at the Beer Garden dancing on the dance floor with no one around but myself and my old friend from Bond University - completely alone, dorky but having fun. This is what lifes about.

Im 21, do i feel any different? Sure, 2 days older but not really. What i do know is its time to focus on my goals - back to uni to finish the degree, volunteering at Australia Zoo with Elephants (hopefully), learn to dive so i can see our beautiful marine life but most importantly turtles, and travel to Paris, France. I was given a Pandora charm bracelet and it is very special. It was given to me by Harley and he told me its to remind me to focus on myself and my goals, and that each charm represents a part of me - my story. This means so much to me and i absolutely love it..

More Sum 41 songs playing on my Itunes. Even though i have a sore throat, heavy head and yet another headache, Im completely in the mood to play guitar hero, drink and go out! All in all, im 21 and nothing has changed yet except that i know where i want to head in life and the type of people i want to hang out with. I miss my old girlfriends and i love them very much and cant wait to see them on Thursday. I've got a good feeling about the next few months before Christmas and lets keep it that way. The best thing about all of this? Something completely unexpected has happened the past few weeks and it clearly demonstrates the roller coaster ride our lives are, but one thing i know is its time for fun, spontaneity and of course honesty. Even if it hurts.