Create some warmth this season

I often find myself in this peculiar space. Everybody out there works so hard, and they believe in me. It's about time i start believing in myself. Your mind is a crazy part of you, and you try really hard the whole time and when you do, you have nothing to feel ashamed of. Anyway, at times its hard to comprehend and make sense of the thoughts going through your head. At the moment my head is full of stories galore, awaiting to make their debut in the novel i've begun writing - and what a story it will be. It all begins, slowly but surely, and with persistence, patience, dedication and motivation the novel will slowly begin to shape itself. What an exciting journey it will be. I cannot wait to delve deep into the minds of my characters (their wants and needs) and take them on a variety of journeys. Its definitely going to be a process but i figure whilst i'm unemployed and looking for work i might as well focus on writing.

Well, for anyone that read my previous post you would have seen i was off to Rockhampton for something a little different. Well, i met some interesting folk thats for sure and was beeped at everyday walking to the chemist or down the street to coles. For some reason those rocky folk just tend to honk their horns at you. Nevertheless it was pretty awesome to just go somewhere different for a while and have some 'me' time. There was a certain someone i missed very much and couldn't wait till sunday came around to get back and see him. Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

Theres not to much to write about at the moment except for i'm finally getting better. My immune system is kicking into action and my vitamins are helping. I take sublingual vitamin b12 3 times a day, vitamin b at breakfast and lunch, iron and a vitamin c and zinc powder, echinacea and a herbal tonic from the naturopath to help balance my hormones and balance my mood. I've noticed a difference in my mood with the st johns wort also (twice a day). It seems to relieve irritability and anxiety and calm the nerves and although im not working full time and so on, it's definitely something i need for myself. I've been eating steamed veggies every evening along with a serve of some kind of meat whether its mince or chicken or even salmon. I love my eggs and avocado of a morning and find snacking on a few brazil nuts and protein balls help give me energy during the day to. The fact im feeling better and able to get to the gym makes me feel so much better in my mood. Im feeling more positive about my life and what the future will bring.

All in all i believe that a balanced diet serves more to energise not only your body but your mind and in keeping positive people around you also helps. I'm not a perfect person but that is in the eye of the beholder and honestly, im so happy that all my decisions and actions have led me to where i am today because i like me, and thats important.

Update

Late at night, I find myself stewing over ideas in my head about which direction to go. I often think to myself "what is the point of this?" I feel like Aristotle, in the days he wrote his infamous Nicomachean Ethics, of which is ultimately to determine how best to achieve happiness. I'm constantly searching for something new and exciting to do, follow or believe in. I struggle to shut out negative thoughts whilst trying to fall asleep. When i notice a negative thought drifting in i say to myself "no, this isn't the time for this, this is my safe zone" and i imagine throwing those negative thoughts into a bag and zipping it up. May seem silly but it works. When something works, do it.

I'm craving a change of scenery, at least for a few days. After an unexpected late night phone call from someone i didn't think id hear from again, it sort of cemented the idea in my head that yes, i need a change. Therefore, Rockhampton seems like a good enough place to start and tomorrow im booking flights to Rocky and i'm going alone.

Positive affirmation #1 for Rockhampton

"i am reliant, self-confident, and full of determination and independence"