Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your
strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is
strength.
Arnold Schwarzenegger
What ever the rest of the week brings to you, be strong, smile
and let your strength, your love, help you to a better day.
Good Afternoon
everyone, I hope you are all well, cos' here's the touch down like a 747.
There you are reading my blog again either on your desktop pc or smart phone and you're thinking, what is she on about now? Well, what am i talking about?
Ever sit there and just think,
"you know, today is a good day." This is how i'm feeling at this very
moment and i decided to write a post to share what's been going on in the world
of JP lately.
Alas, it tis'
raining once again on the Gold Coast. Tends to happen throughout our Winters,
however, more so we get the summer storms. You know the perfect summer lovin'
days from sunrise and then once schools out and it hits 3pm, its overcast and
the lightning strikes. Its a sign!! Leave the kids at school.
But seriously, i'm sitting
here in an old pair of grey track pants with a bond university logo streamed
down the side, socks on, a simple cream coloured knit and purple glasses. I
have no make-up on and my hairs an absolute mess, yet, i've been quite the busy
bee this morning. So busy, i forgot to fuel the engine with some petrol, AKA
feed my body some nutritious breakfast, thus instead i woke up to an 8am
message from a friend asking for a morning coffee date. I sighed, (it
is freezing) and dragged myself out bed, stripped off and jumped into
a searing hot shower. Ahhh, feels good doesn't it? Hot showers on a chilly gold
coast 18 degree winter day!
The
worst thing, is being in the shower and once the waters off, you get the tiny
bit of breeze hit you and you quickly make a grab for your towel (and it still
hasn't dried properly from the night before. There's no other choice though,
unless you are going to make a nudie run out to the cupboard and walk on the
cold tiles.) I think, just use the dam damp towel, dry your feet and the socks
go on first, (that's what i do). Anyway, i headed out this morning for a few
hours and saw a friend, ran some errands and by the time i was back here i
completely forgot i hadn't had anything nutritious. To the juicer i was! So i
whipped a raw yet tasteful, beautifully refreshing paw paw, carrot and apple
juice. It was deliscious, you can't knock it till you try it. And now im
sitting here listening to Ed Sheeran, reminsicing about times spent in
Rockhampton and Mackay and reading my psychology textbook about Developmental Psychology,
or 'lifespan development.' The drizzle of rain in the background creates the
most comforting atmosphere to write to. What tops it off is my best friend is
sitting right beside me, having a snooze. My little pup Jenna.
Today, i miss the old days.
The after school ballet rush and nights spent doing ballet, jazz or
contemporary preparing for the weekends competition.
Today, i miss the innocence of being a youth, (you
know where you can get away with things because you are still a kid.)
Today, i miss the family time: sibling fights, getting a smack for shaving your legs too young, and birthday celebrations and family days out.
It's so nice to have memories. These memories i've been playing through my head the past few hours urge me to plan more and be in touch with my family. Not only my immediate family, but my family in New Zealand and Melbourne - my brothers and sisters from the same mister (my dad sowed his seeds thats for sure but saved the best for last.) I really love having a bigger family and being so close to my brother in Melbourne. I love him so much and cannot wait for all the times we will share together. We have a very honest and open relationship where i can speak freely about whatevers on my mind, whether its about my studying, work ideas, my leisure activities or even if its about how amazing i think Henry Cavill, the new superman is... i can speak of whatever. And he speaks the same with me. We have a very special bond full of trust and i feel so lucky to have that with him.
I think that its so important to be on good terms with your family, even if you have a faling out or disagreement, you should eventually sort it out and not hold grudges against people because we only have one life to live. We get one shot and one opportunity. That said, there are cases when you should just tell your family to get nicked because there doing you more harm than good and don't deserve to have you in their life, so you create your own life and family.
When i'm writing, I like to refer to Bukowski quite often for i believe he was not so far off of how he interpreted people and his own life, in the grand scheme of things. People can be fickle and lazy in their friendships with you, untrustworthy, and dog you for the next best thing, but your family will always be there.
Everyone is a little crazy and there is no way in hell we are able to keep it completely together 100% of the time in our lives because thats not what life is about. Life is about being knocked down, pulling yourself together and lifting yourself back up. It's about learning from your mistakes. Most of all, your life is about YOU. And as adults, we are held accountable for what we say and do because you know whats right and what is wrong and how to go about things depending on the different situations because you have lived. You aren't just a bag a bones, you're a hell of a meat packet full of experience and emotion. Experience shapes us.
If you let go of something, let it go and move forward. If you can't let go, sit back and think about why, because its probably something to do with YOU. In this life YOU are 10% what happens to you and 90% the way you react from it. I've made some hard decisions in my life, some i am still working toward moving forward with today but my life is about ME and what i want as much as it is about everyone else around you. It's okay to be a little selfish and keep YOU happy before trying to make everyone else happy. I've said this often and ill say it again because in reality Bukowski knew what was what.
"Some people never go crazy, what truly horrible lives they must lead!" -- Bukowski.
"Sometimes you climb out of bed in the morning and think 'i'm not going to make it' - and then you laugh inside, remembering all the times you've felt this way." -- Bukowski.
In this life we are going to make mistakes and go a little crazy, be a little silly, fall in love too quickly and then be afraid of what the next steps going to be but one things certain, it's my life, and i wanna give it a dam good go.
Not closed eyes, eyes wide open! I will look life in the face and say 'COME AT ME BRO'.
Live a little, stop being so serious, and laugh. We can do this!
Until the stars fall,
JP xx
It's so nice to have memories. These memories i've been playing through my head the past few hours urge me to plan more and be in touch with my family. Not only my immediate family, but my family in New Zealand and Melbourne - my brothers and sisters from the same mister (my dad sowed his seeds thats for sure but saved the best for last.) I really love having a bigger family and being so close to my brother in Melbourne. I love him so much and cannot wait for all the times we will share together. We have a very honest and open relationship where i can speak freely about whatevers on my mind, whether its about my studying, work ideas, my leisure activities or even if its about how amazing i think Henry Cavill, the new superman is... i can speak of whatever. And he speaks the same with me. We have a very special bond full of trust and i feel so lucky to have that with him.
I think that its so important to be on good terms with your family, even if you have a faling out or disagreement, you should eventually sort it out and not hold grudges against people because we only have one life to live. We get one shot and one opportunity. That said, there are cases when you should just tell your family to get nicked because there doing you more harm than good and don't deserve to have you in their life, so you create your own life and family.
When i'm writing, I like to refer to Bukowski quite often for i believe he was not so far off of how he interpreted people and his own life, in the grand scheme of things. People can be fickle and lazy in their friendships with you, untrustworthy, and dog you for the next best thing, but your family will always be there.
Everyone is a little crazy and there is no way in hell we are able to keep it completely together 100% of the time in our lives because thats not what life is about. Life is about being knocked down, pulling yourself together and lifting yourself back up. It's about learning from your mistakes. Most of all, your life is about YOU. And as adults, we are held accountable for what we say and do because you know whats right and what is wrong and how to go about things depending on the different situations because you have lived. You aren't just a bag a bones, you're a hell of a meat packet full of experience and emotion. Experience shapes us.
If you let go of something, let it go and move forward. If you can't let go, sit back and think about why, because its probably something to do with YOU. In this life YOU are 10% what happens to you and 90% the way you react from it. I've made some hard decisions in my life, some i am still working toward moving forward with today but my life is about ME and what i want as much as it is about everyone else around you. It's okay to be a little selfish and keep YOU happy before trying to make everyone else happy. I've said this often and ill say it again because in reality Bukowski knew what was what.
"Some people never go crazy, what truly horrible lives they must lead!" -- Bukowski.
"Sometimes you climb out of bed in the morning and think 'i'm not going to make it' - and then you laugh inside, remembering all the times you've felt this way." -- Bukowski.
In this life we are going to make mistakes and go a little crazy, be a little silly, fall in love too quickly and then be afraid of what the next steps going to be but one things certain, it's my life, and i wanna give it a dam good go.
Not closed eyes, eyes wide open! I will look life in the face and say 'COME AT ME BRO'.
Live a little, stop being so serious, and laugh. We can do this!
Until the stars fall,
JP xx
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