The alternative is to think backwards and that's just remembering. Life can get a little messy at the best of times, yet that's what living is. For someone who was struggling to get out of bed for months on end to face the day, this girl you see above is feeling pretty damn good about things and will happily jump out of bed to face the day as long as it's after 9am (we all need our beauty sleep). Its the first day of November and in another week i'll be jet setting back to Rockhampton to see my wonderful boyfriend and two beautiful friends of mine whom i feel so grateful are finally in my life. Isn't it funny how we go through so many stages in our lives of friends coming and going, jobs, relationships and what not and then you finally become friends with someone and it makes you wonder how you ever lived without them. This is how i feel about a special girlfriend of mine. Like two peas in a pod we seem to just fit together. It's nice to meet someone who is so supportive and appreciative who just gets you, with one look or statement they know instantly what you are thinking, whats wrong and what you need to do about it... Or sit up and chat with you no matter what day it is and just have a massive d&m filled evening hosted by a bunch of giggles. Secondly, i feel so grateful to have met my boyfriend up in Rockhampton, for now he is the only reason i need to be up there. He is so supportive of who i am and makes me feel like i can do or say anything and its okay to just be me. Im really missing him at the moment but the time apart does go quickly, and it helps me appreciate the time i do get to spend with him. Although i am so very slack in the blogging department (which i do apologise for) things will improve when i buy an internet stick so i can write and work on things up in Rockhampton instead of watching Underbelly and Big Bang Theory (i really do need to be a little more productive). It's just that sometimes its nice to take a break from things and really leave my mind open to new trains of thoughts and possible changes in thought patterns without writing them down. I might feel a certain way one minute, then half an hour later when i've really thought about it i change my mind. Ridonkulous! Thoughts are a little ridonkulous sometimes. You know when you have a simple thought about something, then you think 'shit, why did i even think that, gee i'm a loser'? I don't believe our thoughts follow any particular patterns and i wonder at times how certain thoughts even get into my brain! Nevertheless, at least they keep us on our toes and keep our minds entertained. One man band BOOM.
You know, so many people i know have a plan of what their lives should be like or will be like if 'such and such happens' or what they would do 'if this happened,' i just feel i shouldn't have a definitive plan right now, but take each day as it comes. I have absolutely no idea what i'm going to do next year and as much as i've racked my brain and wished more than once that i knew what i wanted to do with myself, all i know is, i want to be healthy and happy with who i am as a person and continue to cultivate the amazing friendships i have and grow in my relationship. Now i don't think that's too much to ask. The first step? My coconut detox 48hr cleanse. Mission accepted!
Until the stars fall,
JP xx
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