..today's playlist..

Sometimes when the world sends us spinning, we want to do nothing more than drop into an easy chair and stare into space. But this approach often gives the brain free rein to continue its obsessive and agitated thinking. And, if obtaining peace of mind was as easy as telling ourselves to relax when we feel agitated, we'd all be walking around in a cocooned, blissful state. After many weeks of wanting to get back to a yoga class and putting it off with meaningless excuses, this morning i felt ready for an hour and a half class starting at 6am. My hips felt tight, my mind wandered, i was anxious about my breathing but tried to control my mind to focus on my breath and my ligaments took longer than usual to loosen, but nonetheless after the class i felt energised and ready to begin the day. I woke up at about ten to 5, so instead of trying to fall asleep again, in which id probably sleep past my alarm, i rose out of bed, showered and headed to class. I miss the way my body feels after strengthening and lengthening, and since i'm so used to getting up early now, i might as well start my day with exercise so after work i can focus on other things.

Yoga music is soothing, calming and definitely relaxing. During relaxation, the instructor came around and sprayed an antioxidant mist over us, and gave us a mini head massage. The relaxation part of yoga allows the breath to resonate with the rest of our bodies and become neutral. After heading home, it was breakfast, another shower and a trip to Ella Bache for a much needed facial, more relaxing music and a head massage. My face feels so smooth and supple, nice! Home, then out to the casino with mum to see 'Burn the Floor' - absolutely amazing! It makes you want to jump out of your seat and book in some latin classes. Very talented dancers from a variety of different countries and two amazing singers. Its great to go to a show where the talent shines out of each and every individual including of course the musicians. Now i'm even more excited about modern jive on friday.

This week didn't begin as well as i hoped, but has sure ended up to be a really good week. Days off from work always help and dinner at Hard Rock cafe with a pretty spunky guy, well that always turns things around. Just one thing, so much meat! Okay, now i had chicken fajitas (wraps) with chicken breast but there is no way i can eat chicken wings or ribs etc, the thought of eating meat off a bone makes me feel sick in the stomach. Maybe because i know its an animal? Do i want to be a vegetarian for the harm done to animals in the food process, yes. But i know my body more than ever needs some iron, and meat is meant to be eaten. Free range eggs, anyone? You know, we have a lot of fun together and Its great to meet someone you can be yourself with straight away, who knows everything about you, and doesn't judge you. Who doesn't look at your tattoos and assumes you do drugs, because anyone who knows me would understand i have never and will never touch anything. I'm a free spirit - i love tattoos, piercings, rum, yoga, my classical guitar, (still learning to play better) ballet, Stevie Wonder, One Tree Hill and the list goes on. But drugs for me, definitely not. Unfold me, breathe me for what i am.

Instead of losing myself again, i'm finding myself falling into the path of stillness. I feel safe, relaxed and like me. Most of all, i feel really happy. Remember that thing called 'attitude'... hmmm. me to!