When a 6 day old baby stares at you with their big, blue, beady eyes, you can't help but feel a connection. A smile draws upon your face and you take in what beauty and wonder is a new born baby. Babies do not fear, nor feel confused or alone, they are at peace. There's something so beautiful about a new life into the world whether it be a human baby or a baby elephant or dolphin. Each of them unique to their environment, alive and ready to take on the world. Perhaps it's my motherhood instincts revealing themselves, but their is just something so beautiful about a brand new life. Almost surreal.
I took my dad out to lunch yesterday and this is who we had the pleasure of meeting at the end of our meals, a new born baby boy. Seeing him definitely brought to light the fact that i can't wait to have a family of my own. Someday...
"yes well you know when change is for the better..." - This is a statement I often hear people saying in times of desperate need, or when they need a sign that everything will be okay. Change can be for the 'good'; a new city/town, new friends, a new job or challenge in your life, and it can also be for the 'bad'' when a relationship breaks down and you're forced to take the highroad, adapt to not having them around you and compromise in your new settings. People are all the same no matter where you go. They have similar ideals and fall back on the same values. Their morals only differ in terms of their surroundings. We are a product of our environment; the only thing that stays the same is change. Our world, our humanity is constantly changing, adapting, so do we ride with the waves or crash and burn onto the shoreline? Recently i said we must live our own lives, well, and know that their will always be situations to adapt to, strong minded, opinionated people to work alongside and graceful patience to be maintained in each and every one of us. At the moment I feel dizzy, nauseous even and a strong abdominal pain is surging across the base of my stomach. I'm keeping hydrated - plenty of fluids, yet a dazed feeling overwhelms me. As usual my mind is racing, my heart beats irregularly. Perhaps i'm a little afraid to be completely honest with the predicament. Last week i changed my mindset, stating that i wouldn't let myself delve into this state of paranoia or anxiety... It's not as easy as i thought it was going to be.