The burning smell from the engine was making me feel nauseated and dizzy so i swerved off to the side of the road, jumped out the car and headed down the street. Its 2am, i didn't turn around then all of a sudden i picked up the pace and ran for it. He had dark brown hair, was quite tall with broad shoulders wearing nothing but black and he lead foot it towards me. I felt my lungs start to tighten "fuck this asthma!" i silently yelled in my head. "Where do i run!?" i thought, then all of a sudden out of nowhere a young girl pulled over, she was 17, "quick, jump in!" she cried. I scrambled for the door handle, eventually got it open; it seemed like forever, i knew he was gaining on me. I pretty much made a dive for the front seat, she put her foot down and fled out of there. I was in what looked like a simple country town and this girl was a mirror image of my 7 year old cousin, only a teenager; grown up and a little more mature looking in the face. We didn't know each other and sat in silence. I told her to drop me off at the next service station, there i could make a call to my best friend but she wouldn't have it and drove me to her families farm house. Horses, chickens, ducks, sheep, goats and the such, it felt surreal...unlike anything i've felt before. She stopped her car and we got out. It was freezing cold and a little cream coloured dog came bounding over, barking with excitement...it was my dog.
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At night we close our eyes to sleep and we dream. If you have an overactive imagination like mine, you dream every night. Above, was one of last nights dreams that i can remember. Ever wondered why some of your dreams feel so real, or are completely mixed up or why there are recurring dreams. I have this dream where every few months or years, it happens again. It's the same people, same city, same location, same dress however the story develops further along each time. Last time at the end of the last installment to the dream, there was no gravity and i could float. I managed to crawl away and hide behind a giant pot ornament up high near the roof, and Travis killed him for me. It's one of those dreams that could become a movie length thriller. Its scary, exciting, surreal and feels so incredibly real. Sometimes i've woken up in that half awake, half still asleep, but dreaming, paralyzed state. Aren't dreams interesting? What do you dream of? The last few dreams i can remember consist of being raped and not able to scream for help (every girls worst nightmare), living by myself on mars with dolphins cruising around and being attacked by a giant brown snake on the way to Dolphin Cove, with Bas telling me he is too busy to help because he needs to pick up the guests for the special needs program, meanwhile... i'm laying on the path hanging on to my leg. A mixture of small fears perhaps? I've never been one to completely delve deep into the meaning of what dreams mean, however i do know that your brain, and your subconscious work overtime whilst your asleep to process the days activities or even the weeks activities and any feelings, concerns, thoughts, plans etc. Sometimes, it becomes a jumbled mess of A real life game of Jumanji, are you in or out?
Lack of sleep can also add to the craziness of your dreams. I don't doubt this for a second. If i didn't have today off from work, i'd be a moody, miserable mess for everyone else. I've had a great week, it's been non-stop and now i'm really feeling it; exhausted, vulnerable, moody and my head is spinning. I have a date tonight and as excited as i've been it kinda saddened me at the same time. When i lived with my ex i wanted to go on dates but we never did... sometimes in relationships it's still nice to go on dates and spend romantic evenings together, but its something that never happened in our relationship so i feel pretty special about tonight. This person came into my life unexpectedly, but i'm having fun, exercising and eating well (i'm doing everything ive been aiming to do and starting to get into a routine now) and i whoop his ass at Guitar Hero. I'm pretty happy at the moment with how the year is ending and can't wait for more awesome nights out, fun with my girls, my family and heading to No sleep til' festival in brissy! Megadeath, A day to remember, atreyu - heck yes! I saw sunflowers at work yesterday and they completely drew a smile across my face and made my day.
How cute does lenny look? This is my turtle and I wanted to share this photo with everyone because turtles are one of my favourite animals and i cant wait to see them up north again. Only 1 in 1000 survive to maturity and some aren't lucky enough to even survive hatching! The animals of our world endure hardships like no other and it disgusts me what you hear about animal cruelty, the black market, whaling etc. If we don't play our small part in protecting our beautiful animals, one day they will disappear from our world and i would be devastated if this happened to turtles, well any creature. I'm so thankful to have Lenny, i love waking up and seeing him in the morning. He has bitten me, but what animal doesn't bite, right?
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