Everyone is someone not even mildly the same.
Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours.
Not even a month has passed and i feel like i've known him for a year.
We have all been there. Whether it was a short relationship or the break up of a long term marriage the pain is still there: that ultimate grief you feel when you have lost someone you thought you would be with forever.
"Missing you isn't the hard part, knowing I once had you is what breaks my heart."
You may miss them but knowing that you were with them and never will be again is going to take some coming to terms with.
Human beings have incredible tales of love, heartache, grief, pain, adventure, war and other people who touched their lives or walked in and out. We live our lives from one stage to the next, riding on our horses way up unto the sky and that's just the way it is. When we fall, our friends and family are there to pick us up but the question is when?
I think it's time i forget about thinking of my past or my future as such but enjoy the present. The ending is inevitable and i know i will be saddened. As the saying goes, people walk in and out of your lives and some leave footprints on your heart. So many times i miss certain people in my life. Something exciting happens to me and i want to ring up 'such and such' or 'that person' but i don't because i can't. Those people are no longer apart of my life anymore for one reason or another. My head is spinning round. What is it with night time and endless thoughts? I should go to bed and watch flight of the conchords to take my mind off things. Should, could, don't. Kind of like studying for my mid semester exams - i know i should have, i really could have, yet i didn't. One year and i'm still not motivated, perhaps quitting my work will help? I spoke to my supervisor about dropping back to casual as i don't think i can fulfil the requirements of my permanent contract. I wish i cared more and i don't - a saying typical of the past week. My happiness is so important to me this year, as it should be and at work i'm extremely unhappy, so i need to do something about it. Don't sit back and watch my miserable days go by but get out and make something happen, a positive change to another scenery. I've been trying to find a new job and it's not easy. If only i could draw.
My best friend and i spent the afternoon together dealing with murphys law for one (technology does not like me!). But then soon after headed into surfers to get some new ink - my long awaited sunflower tattoo. The tattoo looks amazing and i'm very happy with it, i just didn't think it would take so long.
JP x
PS: grhhhrhrhrhhrhrhrhruuuurrr
All of the colours i see everytime i see you.. is everything still a bet?
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