The
Midnight Special
Sigh. As I throw myself down onto my bed
ready to do some reading on working and communicating effectively in health,
(another module for studying) I begin to contemplate the feelings I’ve been
suppressing about my long distance relationship. I never thought I’d find
myself in one, you know, a relationship where your at least 15 hours drive or
an hours flight away, but love has a funny way of popping its head up when you
least expect it and not always to… I suppose ‘fit’ into your current life. Now
don’t get me wrong I am not unhappy in my relationship yet I am unhappy with
the ‘distance’ circumstance. I have to really plan when I can see my boyfriend,
I can’t just ring him up on a whim and say ‘hey, wanna see a movie tonight?’
and sometimes it gets me down. I know this is just how it is at the moment but
I feel our relationship is sort of in a stagnant place because we’ve only been
together since September, therefore we grow that little closer together when we
see each other and pick up where we left off so to speak. We are in contact via
phone whether its calls or texting every day yet you just feel the distance.
Frankly, it’s that I miss him and I want that cuddle to sleep sometimes. 3
weeks is a long time not to be with someone your heart misses. Some days are
better than others, and then theres days like today… where you just wish the
time away because by the time you go to sleep you are one day closer to being
together.
People
say you can’t make long distance relationships work but the heart wants what
the heart wants. We share day-to-day activities between each other that draws a
smile to my face. Being apart is hard, but it is also enabling us to continue
growing as individuals while still remaining a couple. I still enjoy going out
with friends and feel committed in my relationship. I have my new course I’ve
gotten into and he has his own things to focus on. Eventually, one or both of
us will be able to move so we are closer together but I have realized it has to
be a compromise, not a sacrifice. Whether we live apart or together, its
important in a relationship to make your partner a part of your life and grow
together, not your whole life.
Yes,
it's rough being apart, but harping on the negative can take a toll on the
relationship. But it’s confirmed; absence really does make the heart grow
fonder!
OMG!!
I cannot believe its March. MARCH already and so much has happened. I spent a
wonderful valentines day with my man in Airlie beach just off Mackay in the
pouring rain I add… out boat rafting and snorkeling, set off with a lovely
dinner and drinks in our balcony spa. Was so lovely to spend that time
together. Just thinking about it now I wish we were back there! Definitely
going to have to plan another trip there for winter so the visibility is
clearer and I can see more nemos! Secondly, I’m studying my allied health
assistance certificate and enjoying learning about the human body structures
and functions of those systems. Im hoping to get through the content quite
quickly to begin my work placement and obtain a job, so I’m moving forward
toward a career instead of feeling like I’m doing nothing and just going
through the motions you know.
I’ve
just spent a wonderful week with my mum and her friends from England who have
come over here for the Australian sun, (unfortunately, its been pissing down
with rain for weeks) and so we weren’t able to take them to sightseeing places
they would have enjoyed, but we have had a great time singing karaoke, heading
out for dinners and enjoying each others company.
I
know I don’t write in my blog that much, I always have a lot to say but I’m not
sure the best way to say it. I miss some of my girlfriends who I haven’t been
in touch with lately, everyone’s so busy with life its hard to catch up.
Nevertheless,
the people who want to be in your life will be there no matter what! And today I
give myself a pat on the back for looking after number one for a change and
doing things for me.
“Challenges are what make life interesting and overcoming them
is what makes life meaningful.” - Joshua J. Marine - See more at: http://addicted2success.com/quotes/37-inspirational-quotes-that-will-change-your-life/#sthash.U5xvCAAi.dpuf
until the stars fall,
JP xxx
