Its not always peaches and cream

A times it can be like chalk and cheese. Things don't always add up... the sums don't make any sense, it's like sitting in your algebra class with a book open on physics, staring out the window dreaming about the starry night. Hmm, a little confusing? Well i won't say thats how i feel at the moment, because i don't. Things are pretty straight down the line, however, what is like chalk and cheese is the amount of options we have. The different directions our lives could lead us all depend on choices. How i miss when things simply consisted of what time school started in the morning and if my costumes were ready for my eisteddfod that weekend. I think whats happening here is that i've realised there is no way back, and definitely no point planning to many goals for the future or even planning events that are two weeks away, unless you know you can stick to them, because sometimes when you plan to much disappointments arise because something will pop its ugly (or pretty) head up out of the wood works and its beyond your control. So how do you react? You simply notice it, make a decision, act, and move on and for goodness sake do not dwell on it. A common saying is that "the biggest mistake you will make in life is fearing that you will make a mistake." This is true, and it is something i aim to live by. If you don't do something, that you have never done, you will always get what you've always gotten. This is why the past few weeks i've taken a stand and simply asked the question, if i wanted to know the answer. Called up the people im afraid to call (i hate talking on the phone and ringing places to book things... im getting there though). Tell the truth (well, i am always honest) and don't be afraid to tell a person how you really feel, or how they made you feel. Its basically about being true to yourself and being confident. As human beings we aren't always confident and we don't always believe in ourselves or believe that we are worthy of our accomplishments and achievements but we are. With a positive outlook not only on life but being alive and being yourself, we really can achieve what we want to, and if you don't well you obviously didn't care enough, or try hard enough and if you feel like giving up, well, take a breather and try again the next day. Life is impressive, in its scope and depth and in its implications.

I've started a new business diploma course full time at Martin College and just completed my first week. It will be an interesting next few months regarding the course content, the people i'll meet and the opportunities that may arise. Im going to apply for the student representative council and get involved with the careers pathways program and apply for an internship with a company (hopefully) toward the end of my course. I need to get a head, in a company where i can build on my skills and knowledge by utilising the abilities i already have and gaining real life experience to. Im 22, going on 23 this year so its about time i get some groundings for a decent career. Career and family is important to me, but so is living a fulfilled and happy life. One question im looking into this week is this:

"How are we to use the passions to understand our circumstances and engage in communal life?"

The answer is yet to come and will differ for each individual.

Now, its time i stop procrastinating and begin putting together this report. Wait, i have baskins in the freezer... sugar for mental stability? I think yes!

Until the stars fall,

JP x